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24 January 2015 @ 03:23 am
well, well, well.  
so... it looks like i'm back... who would've thought?
my old lj girls have been kinda slowly coming back into my life and i've realized how much i MISS them! but then i realize that i miss lj too. sooo i'm back!

this post is public but i am still going to have my journal friends only. i am also going to be a lot different than i was when i was on here years ago. see, back then, if you were friends with even just one friend of mine (and i didn't know some of my lj friends back then), i added you no questions asked. my journal got very personal when things with my ex got bad and while i did have filters, i still posted way too much as just friends only posts. when a certain community was created, basically with the intention of hurting people, i was an idiot and paid attention to it. it is there that i learned that not all of my friends were my friends. i will not do that again.

i am happy to add people who want to be added but, at least at the beginning, i will not get personal like that again with people i don't know. it is NOTHING PERSONAL - i just cannot repeat that experience i know it's "only the internet" but that HURT. seeing things you shared in confidence blasted for the world to see by someone anonymous just because they could? and the other thing that always killed me is both "mods" in that community were supposedly friends of mine as well. they didn't have to post those two things. but they did. they later explained to me how they had no choice. it was "favoritism" if they didn't post anything. i don't know, maybe i'm just older and smarter now, but so the hell what? if you know something is going to cause REAL pain to someone that you supposedly love? you don't facilitate it. and as for playing favorites, well, what are you doing owning and starting a community like that anyway? but, that's old news. i don't hold grudges - not with those girls. we were young and silly and not thinking of consequences. and i can't hold grudges with whoever shared those things either - i do not know who it was. i have my suspicions and i THINK i've narrowed it down to three - but, again, it doesn't matter. old news.

so. i'm back. and i want new friends and i want to add back my girls from before, whoever is still around anyway. :] i'm just smarter than last time. i am sure i'll get personal... but let's give it some time... and these days, i also have the benefit of keeping people around who i genuinely like and trust - and that's it. i don't care if i have the same mutual friends as whoever or whatever.

i'm a smarter girl. but i'm not a mean whiney person which i sound like in this post lmao. i promise.

so, let's start playing again! can't wait to catch up with y'all and make some new friends too.....

-steph. <3
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: halo - bethany joy lenz
Veronicaveraliscious on January 24th, 2015 02:39 pm (UTC)
I'm officially back! So I hope you'll add me back to your friends :)
Stephneverletyoupart on January 24th, 2015 08:09 pm (UTC)
hey chick, yeah idk what happened..... adding you back
Stephneverletyoupart on January 25th, 2015 02:34 pm (UTC)
Did it work? I'm currently LJing from my phone and have no ideeeeeea what I'm doing
Ms. Rachel McFlyspatulistic on January 25th, 2015 10:12 pm (UTC)
Ugh, so sorry you had to go thru that BS. I had similar issues with family blasting stuff that was friends only. Whatever, good riddance.

Veronicaveraliscious on January 26th, 2015 03:30 am (UTC)
Yes it did!!!
ɐ♏βεℜ♠ℓⓘ℘vanillacoffee on January 26th, 2015 05:25 pm (UTC)
Sam ♥glowstar on February 4th, 2015 06:09 pm (UTC)
I'm glad a lot more people are coming back to LJ - I've made some pretty awesome new friends and it's great to have this experience when it's been so quiet on my LJ for so long (from this one I have now and ones I had in the past included!)

That's REALLY messed up that those two people did that to you. Friends only is an excellent idea for your LJ, as I have mine on the same thing. I'm happy LJ has the option to where you can pick different friends and place them in different groups, so you can have more private entries and only like, 2 people can see those if you wanted it to be like that. I prefer it that way, just like you, it's more private and people can't watch you blog. Like yeah, it's just the internet in some cases, but most cases, people use your own words against you, and that's just not fair at all. You seem like the type of person who would never do that to someone else, so what the hell? People are just wrong sometimes. I've been stabbed in the back by so many people I thought were my friends... trust issues arose out of that. It sucks. *hugs to you*